notes app archives
It’s been hard for me to sit down and write a cohesive blog entry. I’ve just been opening my notes app and documenting little thoughts and emotions throughout my days. It’s sporadic and random, and I often forget what’s in there until I go to make a grocery list…
Instead of having a common theme or topic for this blog post, I decided to give you a glimpse into my notes app lately.
So! Sit back, grab a coffee, and enjoy my random trail of thoughts.
MARCH 16TH, 2025 12:03 PM
“It’s okay to be gentle with yourself.”
It’s okay to be gentle with emotions you hold onto tightly. You can’t rush a feeling. Sometimes all you can do is sit in it and be gentle while waiting for it to pass. Like a rain storm - you can’t say the right words to make it go away. You just have to let the grey clouds block the sun while you sit in your room, listening to the sound of rain splattering against your window. Holding tightly to a warm glass of tea, you settle into the feeling of rest that comes with the storm.
I’m learning that’s how we have to treat these unwanted feelings sometimes. I’m learning to sit in them - but not dwell. I let them come, then let them pass just as easily. Because the truth is, just like a storm, they too will pass and the sun will peak through.
APRIL 16TH, 2025 11:01 PM
“Airports”
Being at the airport confuses me. I feel such a strong sense of excitement. The world at my fingertips! I can go anywhere, see anything, and meet anywhere. Yet at the same time, I’m anxious to the point of tears. Not tears of excitement, but tears of great fear. Fear that stops me from stepping on a plane and landing in another country within hours.
It confuses me that we have the ability to love something so deeply, yet be so terrified at the same time.
APRIL 28TH, 2025 5:04 PM
“Clouds”
We don’t look at the clouds enough. When did we stop finding dinosaurs in the sky and faces above us? When was the last time you pointed at a cloud and declared it a frog?
Now, clouds are just clouds. They’re no longer shapes, and creatures, and hearts. Our imaginations no longer run wild. I need to start looking at the clouds more.
MARCH 11TH, 2025 12:31 PM
Sometimes I feel like screaming.
Not because I’m angry. Not because I’m sad. Simply just because I think a scream could do a whole lot more explaining than words ever could.
I want to scream like a little kid when they don’t get their way. A mini temper tantrum that will only end when someone hands me the lost lollipop I was crying over.
My head’s been filled with emotions I don’t understand, so I think a scream might help. Get the noise out of my head and make room for words to come. Emotions are strange, feelings are dumb - your 20s are even more confusing than your teenage years. Now I get why kids throw fits.
APRIL 9TH, 2025 1:48 AM
Even if there were no one left to see, my hands would still have the ability to create. You can make art, capture, and create without eyes to see and ears to hear. Everyone could leave, but the ultimate Creator would still be there. Creating with my Creator sounds better to me.
My notes app is all over the place, but I hope you can find something to relate to. I love sharing the little thoughts tucked away in my mind with you! This has been sitting in my drafts since March… I need to get better at updating the blog more (it’s my baby, so I feel like everything needs to be perfect in order to be shared). Anyways!!!! Little updates from me:
I’m still in California!! I’ve been here for almost 4 months now??? Which is insane to think about? I miss home every single day, but I’m surrounded by the most amazing friends, so it makes it worth it. I’m heading back home at the end of July - my roommate is getting married!!!!! I have a lot of trips planned for the rest of the year so I’m excited to take you guys along on a fun new chapter.
While being here in California, I’ve adapted a new routine for myself! I wake up (earlier) now! I go to bed before midnight! I got my first-ever pilates membership, it’s my favorite thing at the moment. I’m working hard on YouTube (go watch), while also trying to be more vulnerable on my other platforms.
I’m also in a season of extreme singleness (and loneliness). Even though I’m surrounded by so many amazing friends, I still find myself alone a lot. Most (all) of my friends are in relationships - they’re all actually engaged… So this is a fun new phase of life I’ve never experienced! Not even having a date for their weddings! It’s something I’m working through with the Lord and really trusting Him in, but it’s definitely not easy. So, if you’re in a similar season, we’re in this together! It’s really such a sweet time to be able to fully pour into friends, family, personal goals, and of course, the Lord. Such a specific time we’ll never get back - so embrace it! Embrace your inner rom-com character!
I apologize for being so inconsistent on here. I really appreciate you guys for reading and supporting me! If you read this far, comment some little updates on your end! I want to make this a community!!!! I promise to get better at updating you guys (I say this every time). Alrighty, talk so soon!!! I love you! You’re amazing! Make today a little better than yesterday!
